Hello!
It's the first day of Spring! Wow! It's pouring rain today! Yippee!!
I'm really tierd of the rain, I really am. Yesterday however, was pretty nice. The sun was out, and I was able to take a nice LONG walk around Almaden Lake with my little guy in the stroller. Nicholas fell asleep withing minutes of going out on my walk, and it gave me some good quality time to think, and soak in some sun. Damn though, did the back of my legs get sore. I haven't been able to walk like I used to (mostly because this damn weather), and I was feeling it as I was walking on the sloapy little bike/walk back. I need to take more walks to get out of this rainy, cold slump!
My newest dilemna now is wondering what flight to take this summer to the Azores. My mother is saying to me: "It's up to you..." if we go or not. That is just lovely. I hate being in this position---it's almost a "LOSE, LOSE" situation no matter what I decide.
Sure, it's going to cost me money. I almost fainted when I found out how much the airfare went up. They say it's because of the cost of airline fuel, but I think it's just another conspiracy against the immigrants of the Azores. They know that about 90% of the visitors they get this summer will be coming from the states and Canada. These people will be putting in long hours, counting their nickels and dimes, just so they can afford to take a flight to their homeland to see the relatives, bearing gifts in their zipper strained suitcases!
If I decide not to go to the Azores, I know I won't hear the end of it either. Sure, my mother is denying it now, but I know she will do either one of two things later (or both): 1. Complain how much she needs a vacation, and a break away from watching the baby, and remind me how much energy it takes for her, and how he is just sucking all her energy, and how she provides free day-care for him, and how much money she's saving me (which is absolutely true), and the least I can do is go on a trip with her... or/and 2. She'll start talking about how old she is getting, and go on and on complaining how she may never see her sister/relatives, and country again; because I would not go with her...
I don't know if I can live with all that guilt. My mother refuses to travel alone, especially now that my dad is no longer with us. My brother, and sister traveled with her a few years ago, so I guess it's my turn. If something should happen, I know all fingers will be pointing at me for denying her a pleasant summer.. Sigh.. I was looking at the end of August, but, that will mean my daughter will miss her first Fall semester at Jr. College. Hmm... I mean, she'll be 3 weeks late... SIGH...
1 comment:
Good luck with your decision. It sounds like damned if you do and damned if you don't. In that case, I'd suggest doing what YOU want to do. I can't wait to find out what you are going to do. BTW I loved the floral at the top of your page and clicked on it. It opened to a larger picture and I saved it. Don't be surprised if you see it on my journal! LOL
Dianna the Crook
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