Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Keep Katrina Survivors in your Prayers

The Rose

 

Some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razer
that leaves your soul to bleed

Some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
and you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed
that with the sun's love
in the spring
becomes the rose

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Stolen Ruby Slippers, OH MY!!!

Someone stole Dorothy's ruby slippers!!  Why on Earth would someone steal the ruby slippers?  What's the deal?!  Sure, there are 3 more pairs laying about in musems, but really, how do you expect to hide those away?  These slippers were mean't to be viewed and to be shared with the world.  Whoever has them better hand them over quick!

What if these slippers get in the wrong hands?  What will happen to the munchkin people if  another evil decendent of the Wicked Witch of the East/West should get them?  Doesn't anyone care anymore about the munchkin people?  This is just too scary to think about.  Glinda, where are you?

What size are they anyway?  Looks as if Judy Garland had a very small foot.  If you see anyone walking about with sparkly red shoes, be warned, and call the authorities!  They could be armed and may be accompanied by a flying monkey! 

Gee, don't you think there are more things to worry about...like the aftermath of the storm Katrina for example.  Ironic that this storm should happen at the same time as the missing ruby slippers....  Hmm...interesting...

Monday, August 29, 2005

The Man my Mom Almost Married....

I usually write about family stories in my other journal at Diaryland, but I figured I could write it here today.  The following is a true story about my mother and her "scandalous" encounter at her window with her boyfriend, "Lourenco" at the age of 16. 

Setting:  1950, in Vila Nova, a small Portuguese village in the Azores.  It is the early afternoon, and my mother is seen above at her window.  In those days, good Portuguese girls stayed in their homes, at their windows to speak to their male admirers on Sunday and Thursday afternoons.  Any closer contact would be inappropriate and quickly frowned upon.  Just think of  "Romeo & Juliet" for a moment. 

This is a story of how one innocent, and misinterpretated action caused the complete destruction of an otherwise perfect puppy love romance. 

Lourenco was a nice young man, who was intelligent, handsome, and considered a "catch" for any young lady on the island.  My mother at the time, thought very highly of him, and Lourenco thought that Ana (my mom) was the most beautiful girl in the village.  He would often go to her window and talk to her about many things.  They spoke of school, festival activities, including their futures together.  Lourenco told Ana of his desire to buy his grandfather's house that stood on the hill after they got married.  News of his frequent visits to Ana's window spread quickly throughout the village, and sometimes, some of the villagers had nothing better to do on a Sunday afternoon than to watch their romance bloom.  (This was before TV and late afternoon "novelas" hit the village circuit.)

On one particular day, Ana wore a pearly necklace.  Unfortuantely the clasp of the necklace broke loose, sending it fall to the ground at Lourenco's feet.  Lourenco, being the gentleman that he was, took out his white hankie from his coat pocket, and picked up the necklace from the ground.  He then innocently threw up the necklace up to Ana.  It was a perfect throw, and they both  laughed once Ana caught it.  Little did they know, the laughter of this innocent exchange, brought unwanted attention, marking the begining of the end to their romance.

It so happens, a very noisey neighbor, who had nothing better to do that afternoon, heard laughter and saw Lourenco throw something up to Ana's windown.  She was both shocked and disappointed in what she had seen.  What was that young man throwing up to Ana?  Underwear?!  The woman, (who according to my mother she was a very mean spirited, and bitter woman, who never got married, and always found pleasure in creating gossip) rushed to Ana's Aunt's house and told her what she had seen.  Aunt Augusta did not like what she was hearing, and quickly spoke to Ana's parents.  Rumors quickly spread throughout Vila Nova, which made Ana's step-father very embarrassed and angry.  He was so angry that he had proceeded to nail the shutters to all of the windows of the house, forbidding Ana to any future encounters with the Lourenco boy. 

To make a long story short, my mother did not marry Lourenco, largely due to rumors, and misinterpretations of the simple throw of the necklace.  My mother is  still upset of what had happened, that day long ago, as anyone would have been, but then again, I'm not disappointed too much because she did eventually meet my father. One only wonders what would have happened if my mother had not worn her necklace that day.  It is interesting how one simply moment in time can really change a lifetime. 

Friday, August 26, 2005

Change is good!

I've changed my colors!!!  I think my journal is easier to read now...  YIPPEE!!!

Here is one of my favorite Cyndi Lauper songs...:

True Colors
1986
by Tom Kelly & Billy Steinberg

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh i realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small

But i see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And thats why i love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a Rainbow

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When i last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know i'll be there

And i see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And thats why i love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a Rainbow

Sacred Heart Diet

A co-worker from work announced that she had already lost 6 lbs on her 4th day on the Sacred Heart Diet.  It's a diet that Sacred Heart Memorial Hospital give to overweight heart patients in order to lose the weight rapidly before they are wheeled into surgery.  According to Angela, the co-worker (who looks great now, and is only trying to lose some of her baby weight from having her baby), she feels great and loves this diet.  I would love to lose those 10 lbs that refuse to come off, and I may consider this.  Has anyone tried this before?  Let me know, or if you want to check it out: http://www.idiet4u.com/diets/sacredheart.html

Thursday, August 25, 2005

I Gotta Have... (One day) Assignment #72

Ever since I was child, I've asked for a backyard pool.  It was on my Christmas list every year, right above the Barbie hairstyling doll that I NEVER got.  I always ended up with Loving Tender Doll, or a Holly Hobbie.  And of course, a backyard pool was always out of the question. 

Now that I'm an adult, I can get by without the doll, but I really would still like a pool.  Since getting married and making a move from the often small foggy beach town of Santa Cruz to San Jose California, a pool is way up there on my list.  It's ALWAYS HOT here!!!  Wouldn't it be lovely to be able to take a nice afternoon, early evening dip in a pool?  Hubby wants one too.  No longer would he have to mow the lawn and trim the 50 something hedges and bushes in the backyard every other weekend.  And the kids...well of course they would just LOVE it.  Maybe next year. 

Extra Credit:  "Would I be happier with it?"  Just a little cooler, and happier in the spring, and summer, and fall..and of course my property value would increase. 

Honorable Mention:  I really want to be able to leave on a Hawaiian cruise with hubby alone; NO KIDS ALLOWED.  Yep, sure I'm dreaming, but "Dreaming is free!"

Be A Clown!

I just heard something unbelieveable on the radio this morning.

There is this clown, named "BELLO" who makes over $600,000 a year as a clown in the circus.  Is that ubelieveable or what?  Sorry girls, Bello the Clown is married with two children (I checked for my single girlfriends). 

You can catch Bello the Clown at the HP Pavilian through this Sunday in San Jose, California.  You can also see his picture and his very high hair on almost every city transit bus in San Jose.  He looks more like a cartoon character than your average red nosed clown.  Personally, I'm a little scared of clowns, but hey, who would have guessed being a clown would be such a lucrative endeavor. 

 

 

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Wish I wasn't at WORK

I just got another call from my son Andrew.  According to him and my mother, the baby is getting to be a little too much this morning.  I may have to call it a day soon and pick up the little monster up.  I really wish I didn't have to rely on my mom for babysitting.  I am hoping that one day in the near future I can be the "stay at home mom" that I've dreamed of being since I became a mom at 22.  Hey, one can always "dream", right?  Hopefully, once my husband's business picks up (it officially started in June), it might become a reality.  Here's hoping...  The real WORK, is at home with my kids, not here in this office in front of the phone, and in front of this computer.  I would much rather be there right now....  SOB :( 

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

C'est Verdi

I just finished reading Robin Leach's "blog"---Ugg...  What does this man actually "do"?!  I mean, besides rub elbows with the rich and famous in Vegas?  How did he get that job anyway?  He has some pretty scantly (skanky) dressed pictures of women on his blog..  Gosh Robin.  When are we going to see YOU in a speedo?!  Nevermind, I don't want to see it. 

And, speaking of skanky pictures, I've come across some really awful pictures on AOL in a few member directories.  Yes, when I am bored, I check profiles, and oh my Lord in heaven, there are some photos out there that really should not be seen!  Why on Earth would someone want to be so REVEALING online?!?!  It is just a tad scary. 

I had just had lunch, and I regret eating that hamburger at McD's.  I should have eaten the fruit salad instead.  I chose the hamburger because I haven't had "meat" for awhile, but now I have that yucky taste of onion in my mouth.  I must look for chocolate.  I read that article about the women who lost 35 lbs from eating McD's...  I guess that could happen, if you just drank diet coke or water, single hamburgers, salad and fruit..  Of course it can happen.  Just stay away from the Big Macs, Quarter Pounders with cheese...and forget the Super Size.  You can have your fries; just only 3 of them, okay?  I should have gotten a sundae.  "How can you have your pudding if you don't eat your meat?!"  Pink Floyd

I just read the article about the poor nun who got in trouble for dirty dancing.  Come on people...let the woman dance!  "No one puts baby in a corner."  Read it below!

http://aolsvc.news.aol.com/news/article.adp?id=20050823100309990001&ncid=NWS00010000000001

 

Monday, August 22, 2005

LA LA LA...I want to take a nap!

I got this in an email... It's beautiful, and quite soothing...  I thought I'd share...

http://www.lightmovie.com/thelight/TheLight.html

 

Julie...

Yep, it's only Monday!!

Seeing Double (Trouble)

In the above photo there are multiples of two...how many do you see? 

Which is more trouble, a teenage daughter or a toddler?  DOUBLE TROUBLE!!!This is a picture of my oldest, Lizzy and my youngest, Nicholas at his 1st birthday party last November. 

Two Year Anniversary of AOL

Preview

Okay, I haven't been writing blogs on AOL for the last two years, and I really don't have an entry that I think particulary think is my "best shot", but here above is my favorite "funny".  Appropriately, it was sent to me by my cousin, "Coelho" . 

I have good news!  Hubby went out and bought me a new Compaq Computer!!!  YIPPEEE!!!  Now, maybe I can actually stay on AOL long enough to enter more entries!  I now can sign on to AOL at the first try, and I don't get booted off every 5 minutes!!!  YIPPEE!!!  Now, how do I get my kids AWAY from the computer?! 

Wish me luck. 

Friday, August 19, 2005

These Dreams...

I'm still tierd from last night's adventure in "dreamland".  I had two dreams that I remember vividly which is a little upsetting because they weren't particularly lovely.  I do understand however the meaning of both of them.  Please keep in mind that I had just attended a funeral that evening, so you can maybe understand my frame of mind.  I also ended up later eating a hamburger late at night at In And Out Burger, (eating late at night always cause me to have these dreams) while having a conversation with my brother and my mom, (the only people in the place over dressed in black attire) about the signs of the "last days" of Revelations.  Doesn't that sound lovely?  Well, let me share my dreams to you:

In the first dream, I'm in a car with my supervisor from work, and a male friend who I do not recognize.  We are driving down a highway through a very lush and green countryside, with white painted houses and Italian Cyprus.  I am sitting in the backseat, and the man is driving, and my supervisor is sitting in the passenger seat.  I comment how beautiful the countryside is, but they don't seem to hear me, or they are just simply ignoring me.  They are having their own conversation and it is as though they have forgotten I'm sitting there. We suddenly drive away from the countryside, and stop at a roadside restaurant for lunch.  I exit the car, and wait inside the lobby as the two park the car.  Inside, I meet an old friend in the lobby.  I do not recognize her at first because she has changed her haircolor, and she just doesn't look "right".  I ask her how she is, and she goes on to explain to me that she had been just recently diagnosed with cancer, but her doctor seems very optimistic that she will be fine.  I wish her well, and she goes on her way.  I'm still in the lobby, and the supervisor and her friend still don't show up.  I look out the window into the parking lot, and I realize that they drove off, leaving me alone at the restaurant. 

Meaning: (I think):  Recently my supervisor whom I share an adjoining office was recently diagnosed.  During the past three weeks, she has had numerous telephone conversations on the phone with her door open.  She had only confided in one person at the office in regards to her illness; another male supervisor.  I've heard all of the conversations (I am not deaf!!) including the one where she explains to her supervisor that she has not told anyone else in the building simply because she prefers not to talk about her surgery.  Because of this, I chose not to ask her or acknowledge of what I had heard in fear that it would be upsetting to her.  Instead, I've played "deaf".  I did want to wish her well before she left last week, but, she did not let me.  She left the office very rushed, saying, "See you when I see ya!"  All I could muster up was, "Take care."  It was an odd moment; and apparently it has stayed with me.  Of course by NOW everyone in the building knows about her situation; good news it looks like she is going to be fine. 

My second dream is more upsetting to me.  I'm driving down a very flooded street, and I my car sinks into a flooded street.  Two of my children are with me, and although I am able to swim out of my vehicle, I'm unable to revive them.  I'm shouting at them to wake up, until I finally wake up.  Meaning:  I know this dream is a reflection of a fear I possess of being unable to protect my children.  I know the funeral of my uncle brought this dream on; seeing his children, my cousins grieving at the service.  The service also brought on memories of how my own father was there for me, worrying and protecting us.  I don't think I'm ever going to feel like I can "let go" of having the need to be able to protect my children from all from harm's way.  And then there is the fear, that I won't be able to.  Sometimes I wish they were still all babies confined to cribs, wrapped tightly in their blankets, safe and snug from all the evils of the world.   

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Assignment #73--AOL makes me shout!!

Okay, I got my daughter to take these...  I'm such a geek.

Odd's & Ends

I know a few single women out there that are having a real hard time finding a good man.  This just makes me all the more grateful that I have found one (a good man), and I really don't mean to gloat, but it's no picnic out there in the single world.  I remember after my divorce how weird it was being single suddenly and entering the strange world of dating.  I waited a year after my divorce, simply because I was "recooperating" from my marriage.  I had some time to "regroup" and nest in my new "single mom" world.  I learned that it was SLIM PICKIN's out there!  But, I do believe that there are still some good men out there that may be overlooked by these two friends of mine.  You just want to slap them silly until they realize what they are doing.  Stay away from those non-committal types ladies!  If they say, "I'm not ready" for God sakes, believe them!  It's not worth all that work of walking on egg shells around them, or constantly watching your words, or decode the mysterious male "i'm afraid to get hurt" messages.  If the guy or gal isn't on your level emotionally, chances are the relationship is not going to work.  Make a clean break, let go, don't call, and don't leave those messages.  He/she was apparently not worthy, and you do deserve so much more.  Invest in your own happiness, and stop investing on an ill-fated romance.  Your happiness will atttract the RIGHT person in your life.  Enough said.

My friend Sharon just got her foreign exchange student arrive from China.  She has only been here a few days, but when asked what she thought of America, she simply replied, "It's perfect".  Enough said.  I wonder what the girl is going to say when she finds out that Sharon is a medium and sometimes talks to the dead.  "Dear Mother and Father, I am enjoying my stay in America very much.  My American mom speaks to dead people.  Great-grandfather says hello...."

We got some sad news over the weekend.  I will be attending my Uncle Ken's rosary this week and I am not looking forward to it.  The last funeral I attended was not a good experience for me.  It was for a childhood friend's mother, and I found myself literally shaking with nerves during the service. Maybe I was remembering my father's funeral, or maybe I was worried about my friend, I don't  know.  It will be good to see my aunts and my cousins though; I just wish it was under happier circumstances like a wedding or reunion of some kind. 

It's only Tuesday and I am extremely bored at work.  I have only received one probation grant so far.  How do I stretch this out for the rest of the day?!  I'm finding myself counting the days until the weekend, or until 5pm so I can leave this place.  Perhaps I'll take the little guy out for a walk after work; that's if it isn't raining.  It's pretty overcast right now--pretty depressing, almost as depressing as this journal entry!  I hate writing depressing entries!  I must think of an Abba song to cheer me up!! 

I went to Longs (my favorite store) and got some hair color.  The Arizona sun has bleached my color in a very unattractive orange.  I still have the temperature of Sun City on my AOL.  It's 1:12 pm and it's 98 degrees.  Let's play golf!  I'd rather take a dip in the pool, thank you.  It's August, and this summer just flew by so quickly.  Where did it go?  The kids will be in school soon, and the weather will change again.  I was shocked to see the Christmas ornaments already displayed at Longs.  Dear God...the years are just passing by.  I hope next summer I'll be able to go to the Azores again.  It's been six years since I've been there last..much too long!!

Monday, August 15, 2005

Some men are porcos.. (pigs)

This is CUTE!! For all those men who say,
"Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free."

Here's an update for you.....


Nowadays 80% of women are against marriage.


Why?


Because women realize its not worth buying an entire Pig,....
Just to get a little sausage.



My friend, Sharon sent this to me today.  I was very tempted to send this to an old boyfriend--(Was he one?  I'm not quite sure WHAT he was), but decided not to give him the satisfaction.  Oink...

Friday, August 12, 2005

850 Pictures!

As soon as I get my photos developed, I either put them away in a book, put it in a frame, or send my duplicates to relatives.  There are some photos, however, that have been placed in a box.  This box is sitting in one of the cabinets of my entertainment center overflowing with duplicate pictures!  I have tried to make an effort to organize these photos in the past, but now I have more reason to do something with them, now that baby Nicholas, nearly two years old,  has learned to open cabinets and has reached his "search and destroy" mode! 

I have lots of photo albums; all of which are filled with many memorable photos; mostly pictures of my babies, vacation trips, Christmas, wedding pictures...etc..., etc.  But, the photos that have reached the "box", are the photos that never made it to the album.  I also have pictures that my husband had accumalted.  So, I am now on a mission:  to place all photos in albums! 

I went off to the store and bought 4 albums so far, and I still need more albums!

As I rummage through the pictures I'm coming up with a dilemna.  Should I place the photos of former inlaws, or people I don't know, or worse yet, what should I do with the pictures that have my ex-husband in them, and the ones with my husband's ex-wife, for example?  Do I just slip her photo next to my picture where I am 9 months pregnant, or do I put it by the pictures taken at the zoo?  Okay, there only a few pictures on her that I have, and the only reason I have them is because they are family photos with my step-son in them, and I really should include them, but it's a little weird.  To balance it, I put a few of my ex-husband in there, near those photos of Sumo the whale. 

I'm also discovering WHY some of these photos ended in the box.  I have what seems hundreds of photos of zoo pictures.  Okay, I know it seems like the right thing to do when at the zoo, to take pictures of the polar bear and the monkey, BUT, one can have just a little too many pictures of them.  I also have photos where heads have been chopped off by the camera, and some really unattractive pictures of myself.  Boy, I was really fat in some of them.  I'm seeing a transition of myself in the photos; the photos that were taken in my 20's I look particulary overweight and unhappy in most of them; something that I really had never noticed before.  Makes you wonder--the camera NEVER lies.  Some of the pictures however are going to STAY in the box-they are better left unseen. 

Four albums later, I've made a big dent in my pursuit, but I'm still not done.  It may take another album or two..  Wish me luck!

 

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Cake Vs. Pie, Assignment #72

Cake vs. Pie...  I'm really torn on this one.  I guess, if I had a slice of pie on one side, and a slice of cake on the other, I would probably go for the cake; especially if it was a chocolate cake, with chocolate frosting, with gooey, ooey chocolate filling.....

But, sometimes I prefer pie!  I like fruit pie, like apple or cherry--it goes well with a scoop of vanilla ice cream.  The other pies, say like, French Silk just don't do well with ice cream.  Also, when I eat pie, I create an illusion that I am eating "healthy".  I know, it's an illusion.  Ironically, this afternoon I found myself ordering a apple empanada at the Taco Bell.  Instead of waiting to get to work to eat it at my desk, the apple cinnamon smell was too much to resist, so I started nibbling on it while driving back to work.  The nibbles grew into bites, and the HOT bubbly apple filling proceeded to ooze out of the empanada, burning the inside of my mouth and my leg, (after spitting the darn thing out of my mouth).  I think I'm going to stay away from the pie.

I'm confused with the cheesecake.  Is it a pie, or is it a cake?  It has a pie crust, BUT, the texture is more of a cake.  I love it no matter.  But, again, I'm torn between the cake and the pie.  My first instincts would be the chocolate cake however.  Second choice: Apple Pie--no matter what style, I'm not picky.  I will say that a cake lasts longer at my house versus the pie.  My husband and children are more "pie and ice cream" eaters.  Baby Nick however will eat ANYTHING as long as strawberries and whipped cream involved.

Tuesday, August 9, 2005

Good Advice Not Taken Assignment #71

There have been many times I was given good advice-most of which I took, but there have also been a few times I've regreted not listening and taking the advise of wisdom from someone else.  One in particular was from a delivery nurse at the hospital.

I had just given birth to my second child a few hours before, and my "then" husband announced that he was going to go home and watch the rest of the 1994 World Soccer on T.V.  I wasn't too upset about it because I was looking forward being alone actually, but apparently the delivery nurse that was monitoring me that evening was appalled.

"I would divorce him," she exclaimed.

I was took aback, and was surprised by her candid comment.  I didn't take it seriously; but it did make me think.  Her comment stayed with me for a long time.

Well, I eventually divorced the husband, but only after enduring a long, rocky marriage that led me to a realization that I had always known, but refused to acknowledge that things were not going to get any better..no matter how I tried.  It takes two to tango.  If I had divorced the then husband earlier, I would not have had to endured such hardship, but then again..would I be the same person as I am today?  Maybe not.  Life is just a book of assorted pages, full of drama, bewilderment, happiness, sadness, challenges...  I guess it is just easier to give advice, than taking it; until we learn for ourselves that the best advice comes from the actual exprience of learning the consequences....  Does that makes sense?